14 Other Press Telereg Extravaganza! September 20, 19

| think of the words that | want to say
| practice them in my head

Over and over and over again

Until | think that | have the meaning
Until | think you'll understand

| play the conversation until it becomes an obsession
And | tell myself to stop.
Stop thinking- stop saying it,

l#'ll never work, you'll never understand
| finally see you and get the chance to tell you
And my words don't do what | planned
@¢@ee0@ And my heart goes out to you

But your not listening to my heart
You only hear my words-my stupid, stupid words.

 

And you shut the door.

The sea of endless faces, Inside I'm screaming
within the darkest places. Outside I'm quiet because | know
Damned forever to the starkness, | know that | am alone.

until at last the eyes fall prey to cold and darkness.

| am...love and life within the circle death. Alone to feel the pain.

for Niki The pain of caring,
by Erich Brinkman And not being cared about.

Fuck you, you say,

| don't care, go away

| don't care about you,
| never have.

All of my intentions are misunderstood
ig And | don't know how to fix that

| don't know if | should try
Should | say I'm sorry or tell you to go fuck yourself?

= Fuck you, Fuck you,

Why don't you just go Fuck yourself

I'm sorry your hurting but I'm hurting too.

I'm alone and all | need is someone to hold me.

: | think I'm an idiot.

Why can't you see who! really am
Why can't | see who | really am
Maybe | don't even know.

-Niki King-Jocks

my anol always Polo me

alaour Pie man insiole Fhe moon
who was always warching over me
when he wasnt in rhe room

well daololi somerhing mus? have hapysneo
Fo your [irre moon man

he mus? have been off napping

when he hif me with his hand

now olan i know i'm Poo ald
ro hear alour Phe fella in Pre moon

f laur somehow if always soothes my fears
when i'm alone inside my room

sani weilas